I keep telling myself no, but that doesn’t stop the craving or the desire.  I think that’s going to continue till I’m nicotine free.  21 days to break a habit.  That’s the part I’m striving to separate myself from right now.  I’m trying to create new habits.  Hopefully good ones.  At work, I’m finding I need a new break schedule, and something new to do with those breaks.  Breaks are essential for the job I do.  Today I took a whole bunch of 3 – 5 min breaks.  Just getting up and walking around.  When I’m into my work, I rarely think about smoking.   Maybe there isn’t time to think about that because my mind is actively engaged in problem solving.

In the tub this morning, I was thinking about the selfishness of smoking.  Not only are you polluting things and making things dirty, you are also demanding time and money for your own personal interests, which serve no other person any purpose.  Its the same thing with alcoholism, you are putting yourself before the needs or benefit of your family.  I can see putting yourself first if is going to result in personal growth because that will provide an added benefit to the family, but smoking is like war production in that it is a negative sum game.

Money Saved: $60

Health:  Coughing up junk.  Rough in the morning still

Chloe: Still loving me.  Hasn’t seen me smoke in the last few days.  Also, she is able to ride in my car now because it is no longer a giant ashtray.